my little niece's first birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

GAH-HYUN~

Remaining to be a creative human being seems one of hardest things to do when one's workloads are overtaking her personal life. I used to think myself as a person who works very well under any stressful environment but now I find myself hard to take my mind off the problems with work. I do not feel sexy any more and nearly lost my desire to study music and play an instruments soon after I took on the managerial position. one of a few joys in my life used to be travelling and exploring different cultures but now I feel only dreadful to think about wading through the crowd in the tourist cities.

One of our MD's reservations to give me the job in the first place was that he didn't feel I was taking the job seriously believe or not and he came out with the comment today saying one of our customers was not overly joyed when his request was responded by me in a lukewarm manner. Allegedly he was told by me "it's plastic!!" meaning "what did you expect??", which I wouldn't dare to say things like that to the customer under any circumstance anyways. The more I think about what MD implied with his unspoken the other half of the sentence the more put out I was about how people can diminish others or put words into others' mouths to distort the context. It made me really fed up and disappointed about having to justify myself all the time as a part of job description. Another occasion was in the quality meeting this morning toolroom manager would not acknowledge the problems with the tools QA dept is facing by implying the most of requests that come through are worthless or needless work. Another justification I had to make to do my job. One thing I have noticed in the company is that the important thing is not what you know but who you know. Maybe I ought to attend a course on diplomacy at workplace.